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Discouraged

I did it again.  I tried on jeans that are sitting in my drawer.  And of COURSE they don’t fit, of course I’m getting fatter.  I’m going absolutely batshit crazy over this. I had a mini-binge.  I tried to implement … Continue reading

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I choose defeat; I walk away – and leave this place the same today…

  Go figure. Last post I made was lamenting about my weight, self-loathing, etc. Several months later, here I am, embarking on my 3rd week of treatment.  I’m in intensive outpatient therapy for my eating disorder.  Binge Eating Disorder (BED).  Compulsive/Emotional … Continue reading

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Grumble, grumble, chomp, chomp.

I’m sleeping more these days.  Not when I should (nighttime), but naps. I’d rather flop down on the couch and nap than face the world.  I’m gaining weight so rapidly.  I can’t really be bothered to do my hair.  I’m … Continue reading

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Baby steps…

I haven’t done a lot of writing lately.  I haven’t done a lot of anything lately.  Except eating.  I’m up 6 pounds in a month. To my credit, I’ve done a lot more walking, jogging, and general work-out type things. … Continue reading

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DAMMIT

I’d MUCH rather revert to my anorexic ways or hell, even my bulimic ways, than the binge-fest hell I’m in now. I can’t escape it. I wish I knew how. 

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Distraught

The sad is engulfing me. I’m stressed out and overworked and everything has me set on edge.  I’ve been teetering on the edge of a cold for what seems like forever now.  I want to sleep.  I don’t want to … Continue reading

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You know I’m trying…

I love this song. It sounds like an mid-1980s dance/pop tune.  Like “Baby Love” by Regina or something. Damn right. Not terribly much to report these days.  I got my meds adjusted (again).  So far, so good.  I swear, one … Continue reading

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